I’m sitting at a coffee shop in downtown Portland. I have spent the last couple of days here - mostly being bored… I feel an itch throughout my body - I wanna work, do something creative. I’m ready to record my album and go touring.
Ahead of me lies an 18-hour train ride to San Francisco - the last city I will visit before heading back to NYC in three weeks.
It’s suddently occuring to me that I have been alone for more than two months. Or rather - I have been alone in company of new friends. There’s an amazing freedom and a frightning emptiness in being unknown.
I’m looking forward to come back home - it seems so far away and closer than ever:-) I’m writing a song about it, but it’s not done yet.
I feel like a better musician than ever, which is kinda strange, because I haven’t been able to practice as much as I do at home. Maybe a bit of perspective helps my guitar play, my singing voice and my songwriting… Anyway, whatever it is - I’m all for it.
Come to think about it, I have had my guitar on my back almost every day since I quit my job. There’s no way I’m putting it down again - I won’t be deterred from achieving my goal - not by myself, not by anyone.
I believe in it - but sometimes common “sense” tells me to lower my expectations. But why should I? Why shouldn’t I shoot for the stars - live out the dream in my head, in my heart? Why should I settle for something less - something I don’t want?
Get out of your shell, David, get out!